A Woman of Substance Continued...

I don't know where all of this is headed but since Wednesday I feel like my life line is on a uphill climb. It's been kind of a straight homeostatic pace for a long time so when a small little annoyance was occurring, I was taking a dip down and some not so happy inner thoughts were occuring.  Luckily I'd come back up to the steady line I was at.  I've been kind of quiet, drinking Pespi and watching Netflix after work knowing there's really no sense in making a lot of social plans because I have seen this scene and the outcome before.

But I am more than ready to have a reason to wake up in the morning and light some fuel under my behind. I want to stretch my boundaries.  A steady life.....to me...is a boring life. I feel like I teenager stuck in a boring high school class. It's been uncomfortable because I am doing what I was told would make me happy.

I'd prefer a long project that would allow my creativity and brain to come alive. Where do I find that?

In August I went on an online date and when I left...the first thought that entered my mind...well at least it only took 60 minutes of my time.  Work feels similar.  MSU games, going to movies or any type of beer tent almost feels equal to this.  I'm so bored.

Going on a vacation, facing a fear and sharing it in my words and pictures and then learning I inspired a friend on facebook to cross The Mighty MAC, opened up a path for me that I am ready to start walking down.  It was much more exciting than that match.com encounter. I know.....it's weird. But sometimes we have to trust these unexpected feelings and just - go for it!

There are other thoughts and ideas full of substance.  The name and motto for a business.  The attempt to create my own webpage.  Late nights of googling things like the "4 Hour Work Week" and reading articles about investing appropriately and wondering if I am on the right track to go above and beyond filling out dittos for the next 25 years.

Another facebook connection sent me a link to a life coach's website.  First off, she is doing things that interest me. Discussing topics with women that I would love to discuss, think about and get paid for.  So I saw what she was doing, I thought, how do I do that? Then, after my 12 week respite, I began the next 9 months of going somewhere that has given me lots of fulfillment and stability but I find myself growing out of what it has to offer.  And before I have felt happy and excited about these feelings, negative feelings have arose.

So, I took action! I contacted this life coach.  I emailed her and said I have this idea for starting my own business but it seems impossible. Like always, I am trusting my gut rather than staying where I am currently at.  Despite my feelings of comfort and security and despite advice from others.  This is only the beginning of making decisions about this path I am headed down.

Like a good coach or teacher on Wednesday this week this coach reminded me of the first email I sent her in late September.  I wrote down "It seems impossible."  I think for me, that's the allure. Bring it on! As a life coach she has easily given me deadlines and gentle guidance that is only sending me down the path I was hoping to go. She has given me mini assignments and I have produced results that I was only imagining.  For whatever reason I needed this! More than a prince charming, a vacation or a drunken night out.

In 2 months I have created a business vision and I am starting to pitch my ideas to professionals in the community. I'm still brainstorming a lot! But I'm brainstorming for a trademark for my company? Really!

I'm excited to see where all of this substance takes me!