Love.

I missed posting for Valentine's Day however, we might as well make February the month of love. It's a captivating topic! I truly believe in a well balanced life, so let's not skip over LOVE!

As it's said in the movie Love Actually, "Love is actually all around us."

Sometimes I just feel like the general population turns a blind eye or turns an emotion or human need into something to commercialized to make money.

For myself I know I want to have an open mind towards new experiences, people, ideas so I am able to continue being a good listener who is non-judgmental. Hopefully living this way will result in a complete life. Actually, when thinking about it, this is what my interpretation of what love truly is! I feel as if there a several different types of love...so many different types, it's hard to grasp the words.

In order to experience love I feel like it's important to work on the following: Loving the community I am in which includes volunteering, fundraising, helping large causes and speaking up for what I believe in. Having several acquaintances I am willing to smile at and be friendly to and remembering being non-judgmental is important because everyone wants to be heard by other individuals. Realizing friendships have the same importance and qualities as acquaintances but having common backgrounds, trust and similar interests also play a role in the quality of each friendship. It's also important for me to remember intimacy and partnership will always require the basic needs and foundation of acquaintances and friendship.......After all "How can we be lovers, if we can't be friends."

Their are so many other ways to express love to those important people in my life such as being a nurturing care taker, being awesome at flirting and flattering others, compromising and learning to be patient and understanding (even though I'm the one who is right, haha!).  And of course all of these terms of endearment are things I "love" to receive as well.  Who doesn't?

So, last week while America was celebrating with sugar, flowers, jewelry and cards........I have been thinking about how I can be the best I can be at expressing each of these qualities to the majority I come into contact with. Being able to think about these things and what it all means to me and putting it into words for others to read is enough mush for me! Happy month of love! 😍😍😍😍

Being Mindful With Time Management

Even though I work full time, have a basic routine and I'm super responsible I have several guilty pleasures. 

I should....but I haven't made a true plan on how to eat healthy for ever and ever. In my world it's about 50% good and 50% bad. I might die early with no teeth of sugar overdose.

Something I would like to keep working at is making my time useful. I know my energy is limited. After work, scrounging up some source of food, errands and caring for pets and my wild ADL routine (which consists of reading redundant Facebook posts and texting) ...my nervous system is fried. I plop down in front of TV and binge watch shows until I fall asleep. Which at night can be within 10-15 minutes of settling down. So the next night or weekend afternoon I will re-watch the show that I slept through as I eat or complete chores. I mourned the loss of the 8 weeks it took me to watch Gilmore Girls.....I was lost. Falling asleep watching the Gilmore Girls was like a box of thin mints or an ice cold Pepsi. Life does not get any sweeter. However, I did put the breaks on my Rumchata/butterscotch schnapps mixed drink I discovered over Christmas while watching Gilmore Girls. No sense of becoming an alcoholic over a desert drink. 

I don't like this routine. Binge watching shows can be cool on snow days or something. Or when I have no choice to write reports and medicaid bill which is when almond M&Ms are also helpful. But to wind down and calm my body for a good nights sleep? My poor little sensory system :( 

Last night I kept everything off except my laptop and lamp as I was unwinding for about an hour, then to fall asleep I did stretch out in front of the TV......even though I knew it wasn't for my benefit. And I must admit the show Versailles does not have the same warm fuzzy feeling as Gilmore Girls, I've been waking up to some really bizarre shit the past couple of nights.  Since ending the Gilmore Girls I have actually finished a book as I try to wean myself away from binge watching. Tonight everything is off except for my laptop and 1 lamp and my stupid smartphone is on and within reach unfortunately. I can hear the second hand on my clock. 

Back in December I decided I was going to start living my life through the ideas I have for the Siesta Hut and continue to write about how that's going. And my thought is healthy habits are hard to create! But it's the harder things in life that are worth it!  

I need this time just to collect my thoughts and put them into words. It's like eating spinach or kale or drinking water.  It's a commitment I want to make for myself but there are so many other temptations. 

I have the luxury of the time, it's just how I manage it!