Strength

Last night in the midst of getting ready for bed I had all of my lists running through my head. The busy, busy work list, my financial list, my social list. My anxiety was increasing I started writing some of the stuff down to make a plan.

I wanted to stop so I could sleep. I was even stewing because my gratitude and happiest times seem to stem from my past. I have very little regrets over the past 10 or 20 years and sometimes I really miss the past. The friends I had, the newness of every experience and situation (really strange I miss this, but I do)!

So, I stopped. I stopped thinking about my lists and I stopped thinking about how great my teenage years or 20s were. I told myself before I go to bed, I'm going to decide why my 30s have been great! I remember telling myself before that my 30s have been kind of dull but yet stable.  I decided to stop that kind of self talk and assumption the next 3.5 years were going to make my 30s so much better than what I currently have.

It was quiet as it often is at my house and I listened to myself think about what's better about my life now, than it was at the beginning of my 30s.

STRENGTH.

Strength to let go when needed.
Strength to buy a home and maintain a household independently
Strength to hold a plank for 2 minutes and 30 seconds.
Strength to attempt to calm my mind and mediate.
Strength to attempt to do what's best for my body physically.
Stronger eyes that work together.
Strength to juggle the rat race of work.
Strength to practice my integrity regardless of the relationships I am in.
Realizing that I have always been one of the strongest people in the room. Who would have guessed?

My mindset in my 20s wasn't anywhere near the concept of gaining physical or emotional strength, it's been fun to look for and play with how it makes me feel!

Therefore, I slept like a baby with the idea I am a strong and working towards getting even stronger. Thank you, 30s - you're pretty cool!